Rainbow Sprinkles.

I find it really ironic that the bulimia-recovery self-help workbook that my mom bought me triggered me to never want to eat again, only after flipping through a couple pages. I'm not blaming my mom at all, of course, I know she wants the best for me. I love my parents to death, and I know they worry that they don't do enough to help me recover, but if they ever see this, I want you to know you do more than enough; I'm going to make my own decisions in the end, whether they're poor choices or not.

Yesterday, I had a bowl of cereal and an apple strudel for breakfast (at noon, mind you), and then a Caesar salad, spaghetti with tomato sauce, and a slice of cheesecake for supper/dessert. I played badminton right after supper with my brother for like 15 minutes, not that that's a whole lot of exercise or anything, but it helped, I suppose. Today, I had a bowl of cereal, a cup of yogurt, and a blueberry muffin for breakfast. For lunch I had two orders of cucumber rolls and edamame beans, and for supper I had a bowl of vegetarian chilli. God, that's embarrassing to actually write out. I'm not used to documenting my daily fat-ass intake for the whole of the internet to see.

I guess I find it necessary to defend myself because I'm so fricking self-concious all the time, but I just wanted to remind any of you reading this that I'm not all that extreme in my eating [yet...], and it's spring break, so since I'm at home now instead of at boarding school, it's a good idea for me to keep my eating normal as to not worry my parents. So yeah...

Oh, and I cleaned through my computer hard-drive today, deleted a whole lot of documents and photos that I'll never need to look at again. One that I stumbled upon, however, was a photo of me I took last year late February...so pretty much a little over a year ago, when I weighed close to 100 pounds. I thought I'd post it here for you guys to see, although I'm sure some of you will remember it when I posted it a year ago:



I know that probably doesn't look all that skinny to most of you...but considering where I am now, that's pretty fucking inspiring. I'm roughly 126.4lbs now...which is disgusting. I want to measure my height again sometime soon to see if I've grown at all, which I'm sure I haven't, and if my hunch is correct then that would leave me at a stumpy 5'4". Yipee.

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